Working from Homeless

Hello, Friends -

Man, I realized that last post was a bit of a downer.  Sorry – I was going for introspective, and missed.  These things happen – but thank you one and all for the birthday wishes.  I feel better on this side of 40 than I did with it looming in front of me.

And now, for a big announcement!

WFH Cover

My first eBook – an eighty-ish page compilation of my fiction, drama, poetry, and creative non-fiction is now available!  Working from Homeless spans a lot of my work, and will have things you’ve seen, and things you’ve not seen. I’m selling it directly for now, so that 100% of the proceeds go to getting me back on my feet and into a permanent home.   Click the cover or the link over there ———-> to purchase!

So, if you dig my writing, or if you dig me sleeping in places with showers, buy a copy, won’t you?  Seriously, every little bit of support helps, and I’m really glad to be able to give even a little something back to you for all you do for me.

Tell your friends!


The Middle

On Sunday, I turn forty.

Pressed fatly into a hotel couch which I am starting to resemble, homeless and jobless, was not what I envisioned when imagining the halfway point of life.

I figured my small-but spirited suburban home would be full of the noise three teen and preteen offspring make. We’d live near to the city, venturing in to farmers markets and the indie theater on the weekends.  At night, after we’d put the kids to bed and done some work on our respective great American novels, the ginger librarian I’d married and I would traipse upstairs for imaginative sex followed by meaningful and risible talk.

Instead, I listened to “John” have perfectly pedestrian sex as he banged the headboard into my adjoining wall at the Quality Inn. The queen-sized bed was too big for just me, and I felt every square inch of empty space.

It turns out meeting the middle alone is a lonely venture, like crossing the equator on a one-man ship.

I have no plans for the occasion.  Finding the gumption to make plans these days is tough.  I’m sick of listening to myself whine, so certainly nobody else wants to hear it.

I’ll eventually figure something out-but I sure do hope this metaphorical pivot-point brings about more than just more gray hairs, unbearable gas and a mass of white hairs.
Here’s hoping for a healthy kiddo, a safe home, a stable job, and a ginger librarian-no matter the color of her coif not her true profession. 

Here’s hoping it brings more for us all.



If my blog had a sequel, here is where it would begin.

Interior, Residence Inn. Probably day, but shades are pulled against the glare. Suitcases are the new dressers. The bevy of new medical equipment filling the suite hints at new developments.

Nearly fourteen years ago, I began learning an entirely new vocabulary and making an entirely new plan for my life. I learned about congenital tumors, the extreme rarity of which my daughter tested the previously known boundaries. I learned, viscerally, why weaker alloys require the heat and beatings of the forge to become steel. I became something similar, I thought: strong, but able to wield. Shiny. Confident. New.

And I lived that way–not the life I had planned, but the life I had earned, caring for my amazing and ruthless daughter; doing what work I could do while doing so and leaving as positive a mark on the world as I knew how. I had found in simplicity and basic poverty a happiness and a confidence I never would have discovered had Emma not endured the trials she had forced upon her.

I did, to the best of my ability, the right thing for her every day, and I almost always knew right away what the right thing was.

Today, nearly a decade and a half later, I know a new, rare disease in my child. I learned a new level of helplessness. I learned that sleep is often best avoided if you want to be sure your child is ok. And, after a dozen hospitalizations in just a few months, I learned that fear, once washed away, can return, mutated, as terror.  I learned the forge leaves cracks, and that ores can separate under the right conditions, weakening steel, leaving it brittle and ungainly.

I learned a new level of poverty, and I learned what it feels like to say “I am homeless.”

I learned to ask for help. I’m still learning to ask with dignity.

And so this sequel would begin: a weakened writer, not knowing the ending before he writes it, newly humbled and bereft of confidence. Fearing the equipment around him, the genes not yet discovered lying in wait in his daughter, the flashing cursor at the blank line. Terrified of the ending.


Imagine, if you will…

N.B.  You’re welcome, ladies.   

December 18, 2012

Mr. G. Roper
Hooters, Inc.
2 North Ipple Way
Tracts-of-Land, WI 80085
Re: Waitstaff Position

Dear Mr. Roper,

In the pop culture vernacular of the day, it could be said that the milkshakes of your waitstaff bring all of the boys to the yard. If I may, sir, I humbly point out that this instantly relegates half of your potential customer base to second-class citizens.

My milkshake may be lactose-free, but it is certain to bring all of the girls to the yard.

Studies have shown that women are now responsible for managing nearly seventy percent of the household discretionary spending—including deciding where and how often the family dines out.  However, your entirely female waitstaff does not lend itself to attracting this powerful buying force.

As a man of culture and fine dining, I am sure you noted the commercial success of this year’s smash-hit Magic Mike. Now, imagine how much more successful that film would have been if instead of Hollywood actors—who clearly have nothing better to do than lay about working on their physique, removing stray hairs, and defining their abs—with hardworking, hirsute, and well-curved American men: men who remind them of their husbands.

I assure you, it would have been an entirely new level of success: a success that is now yours for the taking.

Imagine if you will the manly, rugged body hair of Burt Reynolds before Cannonball Run 2. Enhance that with the gentle, sensitive curves of Jack Black; the non-intimidating height of Joe Piscopo; the glistening, sexy hair of Woody Allen; and the stout abdominal resolve of Homer Simpson—and imagine the impact that a man who brings all of that and more to the table could have on your business when gently ensconced in orange shorts and a white halter, proudly emblazoned with the majestic, wide-eyed owl of your brand.

I am available to start immediately.  I look forward to your call.


Benjamin F. Jackson

Rise and Fall

It is a commonality among parents:

As we learn our newborns, as we absorb the tremendous fragility wrapped in cotton and placed in our hands, we watch. Alone in the still hours of the dark night, we look for the rise and fall of perfect, tiny chests, and we are reassured that this life we created still pumps its bellows, fanning the fragile spark of life into a stronger flame.

For me, this was not to be.

Emma’s first tremulous weeks were spent on an oscillating ventilator. This machine delivered constant, roving puffs of oxygenated air through a precarious tube in the side of her neck. Her lungs, too young to do their job and denied their prebirth workouts by the sheer size of the tumor above them were not yet ready to handle the rigors of a standard inhale. And so, this ventilator kept them constantly inflated.

To look at her on that first night, all tubes and wires, and incomprehensible swelling from the fourteen hours of surgery her tiny body had just endured, you would see her still chest and think she hadn’t made it.

Sitting my Yule vigil on that solstice night, I placed my hand gently across her chest, careful to not press on her just-split breastbone, and I took a deep breath. In the stillness, before I exhaled, I imagined her tiny, warm, and still ribs expanding to meet the palm of my hand, taking the oxygen from me and fueling her own, unmoving fight.

“Strong lungs,” I wished,
and exhaled.

It would be weeks before I saw her hitching, working to take her own breaths.

Emma is now thirteen, but I still have those deep, lonely nights where I tiptoe into her room. There, leaning on the doorframe, I breathe deeply, hold for a second, and keep wishing “strong lungs.”

And then, when I see the rise of her blankets beneath bed-tousled hair, I exhale along with her, each of us feeding the life-spark of the other.

Refreshed, I shuffle back to bed, guarding the tremendous fragility of my own heart and that of the life in the room next door.

Dads, Dudes, and Celebrity Nudes

Friends, it’s true.

Many women are taking photos of themselves with smartphones, and some of these photos are suggestive.  Some of them are even nude!

As was evidenced over the Labor Day weekend, this can result in hackers, con artists, and other unscrupulous jerks gaining access to these photos and spreading them over the web for the world to see. Jennifer Lawrence, Kirsten Dunst, and many others have fallen victim to these bad actors.

As dads, as protectors, as men, it’s up to us to take immediate action to stop this from happening again:

Don’t look at the damned pictures.

If you’ve seen Jennifer Lawrence’s breasts on the web in the past 48 hours , you are part of the problem. If you’ve googled “Kirsten Dunst hacked photos,” you create the demand that draws these criminals.

Across the web, people have laid at least partial blame at the feet of the women whose personal photos were stolen, claiming that they should know by now that if they take the photos, the photos will leak.


Would you blame a person who stores valuables in a bank vault for attracting bank robbers?  No. What if this was a draft of a Stephen King novel which he stored in the cloud to work on from wherever he happened to be at any given time?  Would that be fodder for public consumption? It would not, nor would we be blaming Stephen King for writing in the first place.

This is, plain and simple, about the commodification of female sexuality, and we, as men, are the engine that drives this commodification.  Therefore, it’s incumbent on us to be the ones who enact the necessary changes to prevent this from happening.

We must not only stop viewing the websites which allow these stolen photos to reside on their website like 4Chan and Reddit, we must vocally cease supporting companies which advertise there.  The same goes for barely-not-porn sites like Egotastic.

When a friend of yours emails you a link to the photos, or starts talking about seeing them in your man-cave, you need to imagine that those were photos of your sister, or daughter, or wife which had been stolen, and you need to give that friend an earful.

The long and sort of it: this is not just about stolen property: this is a sex crime. Posting these photos, which were believed to have been securely stored, is a violation as intimate and as personal as if a peeping tom had taken photos through a bedroom window and put them on the net.  They would not have been stolen and spread around the web if it were not for the sexual intent of those who are viewing them. This is a sex crime.

None of us has a right to those photos, unless the person in them has directly shared them with us. They were not taken for us, they do not belong to us, and we need to get over our own base lizard-brain desires and start treating women like people instead of a pile of naughty bits, there for our own amusement.

So, men:  it’s time for us to man up.  Stop blaming the victims, stop perpetuating the problem, and start being part of the solution.


Crack, Voting Rights, and Ferguson in Context

Ferguson didn’t happen in a vacuum, and it didn’t happen solely because Michael Brown was shot and killed.


Ferguson is a point on a 400-year timeline of unequal treatment of African Americans in our country, and really, the culmination of the last thirty years of drug policy which specifically targeted black Americans.  Here’s a timeline:


  • In 1986, Congress passed the “Anti Drug Abuse Law of 1986″, which was notable mostly for creating a 100:1 ratio between crack and powder forms of cocaine, and for establishing mandatory minimum sentences, even for first time offenders.


This was a law squarely targeted at inner city black Americans.  In what was widely reported as an “Epidemic,” the less expensive form of smoked cocaine was widely available in inner cities, and was primarily used by the inner city poor (read: Black Americans).  Ignoring the rapid increase of powdered cocaine by white Americans (more than doubling in usage among high school seniors from 6% in 1976 to 12.7% in 1986) (Facts, 1), the law stated that 5 grams of crack or 500 grams of powdered cocaine were to warrant a 5 year mandatory minimum sentence.  Know what also weighs 5 grams?  A nickel.  So: have a nickel’s weight of crack ( you know, the black drug), or have a half kilo of powder (the white drug) to get the same sentence.


So guess what happened:


  • The number of Americans incarcerated for drug offenses increased from 19,000 in 1980 to 265,000 in 2008 (a fourteen-fold increase in twenty-eight years, or a doubling every two years) (Porter 2)


Now, knowing the disparity between the black drug sentencing and the white drug sentencing, what do you think happened?


  • The number of Black Americans incarcerated skyrocketed in the 1980s and 1990s.


Today, 1 in 3 black men will be incarcerated in their lifetimes.  This compares to 1 in 17 white men. Blacks make up 36.5% of the prison population, but only 12.9% of the general population.  Whites, on the other hand, make up only 22% of the prison population while making up 63% of the general population. At any given time, 10% of black males in their thirties are in jail or prison (The Sentencing Project 5).


It gets worse.  In 1980, there were three times more black men enrolled in colleges and universities than there were in prison.  In 2002, the number of incarcerated black men exceeded those enrolled in higher learning programs (Butterfield).


So, we’ve taken a generation of black men, pulled them from their homes, and thrown them in prison. What are the impacts of that?


  • The Unemployment Rate of blacks is more than double the unemployment rate of whites


Coming out of prison, one can imagine it is not easy to find a job. So, when we incarcerate 1/3 of a subset of the population (black males), it is safe to assume that this has impacts on their employability—and the data bear this out: The effects of juvenile incarceration persist for at least fifteen years, and reduce employment compared to cohorts by 5-10%. The impact is greater than that of dropping out of high school. For adult incarceration, the impact is equivalent, but appears to dissipate after about 5 years. (Western)


  • Most states at least temporarily remove voting rights from felons


In addition to reducing the employability of black Americans, and particularly black males, we further disenfranchise them by suspending the voting rights of felons. The national effect of this is that one in thirteen black adults is currently unable to vote because of felony convictions. The cumulative effect is the disenfranchisement of entire communities (The Sentencing Project).


Removing the ability and incentive to vote and to earn a living effectively translates to revoking citizenship, as the right to vote is often cited as the clearest benefit and responsibility of citizenship. Thus we—white America—remove power from black America and keep it for ourselves. What is the result of this:

  • In Ferguson, a 60% black community, the police force of 53 had three black officers. The mayor, police chief, and nearly all of the city representatives were white.
  • Nationally, less than 10% of house seats are held by blacks. 25 states have never elected a black congressperson. Nearly half of those representatives (49%) come from just five states. Most blacks have never been represented by someone of a similar racial or ethnic background in congress (Blake).

So, we have a population who has had power removed from their hands at their expense and to the benefit of white American, which wields that power to their own economic and social gain. Then, this happens:

  • In the month leading up to the death of Michael Brown, at least four unarmed black men were shot and killed by police. None have been charged with crimes.

We as a nation demand much of our police—we trust them to protect us from harm, and in order to do so we entrust in them a power we do not give to anyone else, not even the president: the power to kill an American citizen, on American soil, if they believe their life is in danger.

In return for this power, we must hold them to a higher standard of behavior, of thought, of action. By and large, police earn this right—but clearly, when they do not, we must hold them even more highly accountable than we would a civilian.

Instead, we have sat idly by.

  • And then, in Ferguson, Michael Brown was killed.

He was unarmed. He was a high school graduate. He was planning to attend college in the days following his death.

He was a suspect in a robbery, but this was unknown to the officer who shot and killed him.

And it was too much. This was the straw that broke the proverbial camel’s back.

We in white America, from our places of power and privilege ( and yes, even if you are poor and white, even if you live in the inner city, you have a power and privilege that black Americans do not: you have a representative government, you do not share the hundreds of years of discriminatory policy that they do, the shared history of oppression that black Americans share. You do have privilege, even if you refuse to admit it) decry the “rioting” we see in the streets. We scream into the comments section of news articles “Nobody was rioting when black people kill each other.”

What we don’t acknowledge is that this is not rioting: this is revolution. This is a people whom we have trod upon, whom we have subjugated, whom we have subjected to a series of regressive laws, which, as illustrated above, have removed from them all societal power and kept black America in a place of poverty just as surely as if they were still enslaved. This is a people who are now rising up and declaring “no more,” exercising their power in the only way we have left available to them: violence.
And we sit in our armchairs, and we disdain the savages, and scream into the ether about “black on black violence.” We create a caste of criminals, and then we disdain them for the criminality we have thrust upon them.

We are King George. We are Big Brother. In this, we are the bad guys—and we need to make right. We need to stand with those oppressed and demand that the white people who represent us in Congress make real changes which benefit these communities. And we need to do it now.

Works Cited

Blake, Aaron. “African Americans in Congress, by the Numbers.” 28 August 2013. The Washington Post. Webpage. 27 August 2014.

Butterfield, Fox. “Study Finds Big Increase in Black Men as Inmates Since 1980.” 28 August 2002. New York Times. Webpage. 27 August 2014.

Drug war Facts. “Crack and Cocaine.” 09 January 2008. Drug War Facts. Document. 27 August 2014.

Porter, Nicole D. and Wright, Valerie PhD. “Cracked Justice.” 2011. The Sentencing Project. Document. 27 August 2014.

The Sentencing Project. “Fact Sheet: Trends in U.S. Corrections.” August 2014. The Sentencing Project. Document. 27 August 2014.

—. “Felony Disenfranchisement: A Primer.” April 2014. The Sentencing Project. Document. 27 August 2014.

Western, Bruce. “Incarceration, Unemployment and Inequality.” n.d. Stamford Criminal Reserach. Document. 27 August 2014.






Surprise continental shelf!

Life Lessons Learned in a Lake

In 1996, I spent the bulk of the summer in the Czech Republic. A friend of mine was to be married to a Czech girl, in the Autumn I was headed belatedly to college. It seemed the perfect opportunity to spend a Summer in a different place.

One weekend, we decided to hitchhike from our base in Prague to a music festival outside the city of Cesky Krumlov. The village was tiny, but had a gorgeous town square which held the 200 or so festival attendees. Our group of twenty dominated the back rows, dancing and cheering, and having a great time.

After the festival was over, we found our way back to an ideal camping spot-a large meadow, nestled on a lake in the middle of nowhere. About 100 yards away, on the other end of the meadow, were two abandoned tractor trailers. It was not unusual to find abandoned property all over the country just five years after the velvet revolution, and we camped secure in the knowledge of our privacy and safety.

It is my sincere hope that every person gets a night like this while they are young enough and unjaded enough to be awed by its brilliance. We danced, and drank, and skinnydipped in the lake. We lay out unadorned under the naked sky, stars unimaginable to anyone who grew up here in the light-polluted megalopolis of the east cost of the United States. We held hands, and flirted, sang songs and danced, and carried on as only those of us in the new bloom of our adulthood truly can, and just as the eastern sky started to smudge vermillion we slept under the dying stars, piled together in a perfect, youthful union.

It was not long after the last of our eyes lazily closed that the buzzing began.

At first, it felt distant-an alarm clock in a neighbor’s apartment, insistent, annoying, and ignored. Soon, though it became pressing, an all-present call to wakefulness. Most of us were confusedly swimming toward consciousness when she first screamed.

I don’t know which of our friends it was, but the scream was Hitchcockian: shrill, piercing, and elongated into impossible length. Pain and terror reverberated through the meadow and echoed across the empty lake as it lay steaming in the new day. Adrenaline shot the rest of us upright, naked into the buzzing nightmare.

The “abandoned” tractor trailers were, it turned out, actually commercial bee hives. Millions and millions of stinging insects enveloped the entire meadow, obscuring vision beyond a few yards.

“The lake,” someone shouted, and we sprinted, eyes closed, hands covering our most tender parts in an attempt to protect them from the stinging cloud, not stopping until the frigid morning waters embraced us in their protective depths. We huddled together as far away from shore as we could manage and still stand, shivering, picking out stingers, and bemoaning the contrast to the perfect night before. We spent the entire day in that lake, unable to leave for even a moment without provoking the swarm.

Dusk eventually arrived, and sent the horde back into its deceptive trailers, and we shivered out of the lake to leave this idyllic Hell far behind.

Someday, I hope this story teaches my daughter. I want her to learn to grab onto those amazing nights, and squeeze every drop of life out of them. Love and remember each second, because you really have no idea what lurks with the dawn.

Tears of a Surgeon

(N.B. – Emma was recently hospitalized again, for much more minor issues and is home and doing fine now.  In the process of her surgery, however, I found myself whisked into the very same room as is described.  It was a figurative punch in the gut, one of those actual flashback moments)


He came to get us from the surgical waiting room on the third floor a changed man.  Gone was the confident, jocular, Hawkeye Pierce-like surgeon; in his place stood a haunted shadow of the healer we knew so well.


Dr. Rusty Jennings had always been the man who could keep things light. I recall upon first meeting him we were sitting in a radiology room, where unborn Emma and her now-diagnosed teratoma were to be evaluated.  He got on the phone to one of his students:


“Hey!  Wanna come see this big neck thing?”


I instantly liked him.  He wasn’t wrapped in jargon, he didn’t pretend that nothing big was happening, he just accepted the situation and figured out a plan to fix it.  Along the way, his skills were challenged more than any of us expected, and he took on the role of Emma’s personal champion in that hospital.  He refused to let her die, to let this certainly fatal, recurrent tumor kill her.


In geek parlance, he was Gandalf on the bridge, banging his staff and yelling at the demon, “You shall not pass!”


So we knew it wasn’t great news when he shuffled us into a room labeled “Family Consult.”  It was small, maybe six feet on a side, and made up like a tiny sitting room in a hotel.  Yellower-than-beige walls, pleather chairs, industrial carpet.  A painting of a sailboat on a wall, clearly done by an adult trying to paint like a child.  Hospital smell.


Rusty opened his mouth, closed it.  Tried again:


“It’s not good.”


And then, he did what I have never seen a surgeon do: he choked out a sob. There were tears on his cheeks, unable to be contained by the formidable will of Emma’s protector. This man, who had been there when Emma was clearly closest to death on the day of her birth, who had rushed in before five on a Sunday morning when her stomach was ruptured, who had gone in and removed the first regrowth of her tumor as it attached to his heart, who had seen what was gunning for Emma, and who had thrown himself between her and malevolence over and over again, this man sat across from us, crying at what he had just been through with my daughter.


I had never loved a man more, nor had I ever been more frightened.


This occurrence of the tumor, the third, was different.  Ten days before, it had been a pea on Emma’s neck. Now, it was an orange, with tendrils back to the base of her skull, across to her collarbones.  Gripping. Digging in, clawing for whatever it was worth into Emma.


Refusing to go easily, as Rusty Jennings lifted this last bit of evil from Emma, the tumor burst.


“It looked bad,”  he said. “I worry that this one was cancer.  I’m worried it leaked cancer cells into Emma.”


Together, we sat in this tiny yellow room, and we cried, waiting for Emma to be wheeled back to her bay in the NICU, waiting to sit vigil beside her for another long night.

On George Will, Elliot Rodger, #YesEveryWoman, and being a dad.

I am a feminist.

I believe in, and actively work to achieve, a society of equality for all individuals.  I believe that women are as capable as men in all things, and vice versa. I want the women today’s world to have an equal life now, and I insist on my daughter and the women of the future having that equality.

While privilege is a relatively new concept for most of us men, it’s something that I acknowledge.  I know that I come from a place of many privileges: I am an educated white American man, who grew up in a house in the suburbs.  I had all of what I needed, and most of what I wanted.  There were and are doors open to me that were and are not open to others for simple intrinsic biological factors, and I have stepped through those doors.  Once inside, I’ve tried to jam the doors open, but that’s easy to say from the inside.

That said, I don’t always get it right – and here’s where we all need some tolerance.

I’ve been the guy who said “Not all men…” when confronted with generalizing statements about men.  I’ve failed to hear the underlying intent of those generalizations, or the effect of behaviors perpetrated nearly entirely by men on women.  That said, when I – and most other men I’ve known – have said “Not *all* men,” what we meant is “I am on your side.  I am your ally.  How can I help?”

So, responses like #YesAllWomen, while well-intended, create enemies from allies, I fear.  It sets a confrontational tone, when really the whole of us need to be on the same side against those entitled jerks like George Will and Elliot Rodgers, and the many like him out there.  We need to be working together to create a society where their despicable ideas and actions have no place, instead of arguing amongst ourselves over hashtags.

If I get it wrong, I want to know it.  I want to hear differing opinions.  I just think we need to give each other the benefit of the doubt – especially those of us who come from a place of privilege and thus have the mindsets and blinders inherent therein.  Most of us want to get it right, but often we don’t know we’re getting it wrong.  Shouting at us is probably the least effective way to get us to come around.
That said, I have some shouting to do.  The aforementioned George Will, a ridiculous, cowardly hypocrite who rails against education while polishing the frame of his Princeton PhD, implies in his Washington Post column that women falsely report rapes and sexual assaults to attain a coveted “victim status” on campus.  He whines that sexual assault no longer is just penetrative sex, but includes groping, which apparently is not an assault in his withered, crippled little mind.

And thus, he perpetuates these myths and angers on campus.  He creates the sense of entitlement among men on college campuses that women are there for our sexual gratification (“Who cares that she couldn’t walk back to her dorm? She totally didn’t say no!”) and, in fact, confers that same “coveted status” of victimhood onto college men which he so stupidly bitches about in his ridiculous column.

Men like Elliot Rodgers.  Entitled little pissants on college campuses who can’t see past their genitals.  Men who find companionship in the crippled, misogynistic, testosterone-scented basements of the internet where people read George Will’s column and chant “USA! USA!” while trying to convince themselves that they are a legitimate societal movement by rallying under the banner “Men’s Rights.” Men who have nothing but disdain for women, and yet demand that those they hate are there for their own gratification.

Men, like Elliot Rodgers, who then go out and murder in the twisted belief that they are, in fact, the victims.  And why not?  The Washington Post has told them that they are, thanks to George Will and his ilk.

And somehow, we have to parent through this.  I have to raise my daughter to know that it really isn’t all men, and that most of us are disgusted by those who think and act differently.  Somehow I have to raise her with the tools to differentiate between the Elliot Rodgers of the world, and the people are nothing like them.  I have to give her the tools to make decisions that will reduce her chances of being a victim of these people, while not creating the mindset that if she is victimized it is her fault.

That’s all hard enough.  To do so in a world where the George Wills of the world have free reign to perpetuate this sense of entitlement from one side, and in which people who should be allies are screaming at each other over something which is basically poor word choice on the other, well, that’s much harder.